October's Prayer

Lord I ask for strength

I ask to gain your trust

I ask to perform the actions

I'll carry the cross I must

Lord I ask for courage

I ask to confront my fear

I ask to be healed deep within

I'll protect whom I hold dear

Lord I ask for Mercy

My heart was once so cold

I accept which I have done so wrong

And I surrender for you my soul

Lord I ask for forgiveness

For the mistakes that I have made

I promise to share only positive thoughts

And wisdom through roads I pave

Hope

When life becomes tainted

Nearing ends of the rope

Sometimes a story 

Connects us with hope

The higher spirit

Will always remain

Though it may have been clouded 

And driven insane

Onward through struggles

We must continue to drive

Planting seeds of hope

And a beautiful life

I have seen in the past 

How love becomes crushed

All for the chase 

Of a meaningless rush

Artistic beauties 

Became broken and dull

From the core they were hollowed 

To the roots of the skull

But some will rally 

Rekindle their flame

Banishing the demons

That ruined their name

Spreading wings like the angels

They'll fly to the light

And leave what drove them

To the darkest of night

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Bourbon

As I sip away pain from this broken glass
I feel the burn as this washes my trap
The bourbon drowns as it cleanse's my soul
But a bit too much will leave me cold
I have learned to balance the love and the light
I have seen what happens when dark takes flight
I have paid my way through the toughest of struggles
Yet money can't take me away from my troubles
Push forth shall I until the remainder is bright
I'll create my own sun of lasting light
The clouds and the rain shall not cross my path
Even if they try I shall remain on my track
....To peace 

Shades of Grey

Like a hint of poison of another kind
These stories and thoughts pollute the mind
They carry away your dreams and hopes
And replace them with fallacious visions that cope
When you start to adjust the structure within
You open the door for burdening sin
So I'll demolish any that darken my day
As a torch all fifty shades of grey

To watch you fly

As you reach the end
Your journey replays
A flash of the past
The future's taste
Lessons you've learned
Triumphs and praise
Your heart is open
And open it stays
Think of the teachings
And tears you've shed
Those beautiful blessings
Remain in your head
Humble are you
Grateful are we
Those who have known
And shared your peace
Your love is a beacon
Mounted on your heart
Stronger than ever
It lights up the dark
Back to reality
We look at the end
Your wings have grown
The signals will send
Joyous am I
To see such a sight
As my closest of friends
Prepares for the flight

To someone I once knew

I just took a leap
I saw the old eyes
The past was upon me
And sharply disguised
While the canvas was dirty
The paint was fresh
Markings on the skin
Were deeper than flesh
It was sudden for me
My mind went a blaze
Thoughts went soaring
My vision was dazed
Im drawn towards this
What I cant have
If it lies out of reach
Believe that I'll grab

Not just a kiss

Your lips were magic
Until I woke from my sleep
Just reminiscing
Makes me weak
For the taste you left
Is still in my cheek
I wish somehow
I could relive that night
The beauty and passion
As we grasped so tight
The love we shared
When we locked our eyes
Took me far away
Beyond the sunrise
Though it may have been real
I know it was a dream
I still have to catch
The breath you took from me
When I close my eyes
I feel our movements
Flawlessly synchronized
I'll never forget you
And that kiss you left me

Blessed with you

Its happened a thousand times
But the feelings have never ceased

The second I see her 

My heart skips a beat

Like Helen of Troy
Her beauty could start a war
Just being blessed with her friendship
I could never ask for more

The journey to peace

The energy we manifest and put forth is the precursor to what we receive
When we give love it is generously returned and reaching for light we are enables us to see
Our conscious helps to decipher our actions and our instincts to guide the way
When we maintain strength and care on our shoulders we shall never fall astray
The book of life was never written instead there are many guides
Golden scriptures soaked in blood and tears of which we hide
For so many truths on such few pages distort the thoughts that be.
A thousand years can change a mind and taint the way it thinks

...But a vision conceived deep inside can never reach that brink.

Thank you friend

The joy and smile a friend can leave

Is the root of tranquility at its very seed

It is love that will show

The path and the road

And the care that we give

That will allow us to grow

Gifts from the heart without expectation

Are how we truly receive gratification

When peace is craved

Then purity is paved

And the roads are exposed

To the righteous way

Manifestations are when we become

But when we let dark in our minds

Our sights become numb

“Facing what consumes you is the only way to be free”

The language of love

We may not share all the same beliefs
But a look beyond shows the common peace
Thew level beneath is the path to the soul
Where spirit and truth shall start to unfold
Exposed are we when trust is allowed
But similarities connects us away from the crowd
For while eyes can be closed
Tongues can be tied
The language of love
Is one that wont hide

Crops

I've harvested pain, patience and hope
I've held my sorrows in tight with a rope
Wrapped is my neck, tied in a noose
Now is the time to cut myself loose
I was told once before just to let it all flow
But I've never believed in letting all go
When you love something so deep that you cannot have
Do you stop and just quit or continue to grab
Do we wait till we've lost and our time has elapsed
Or reap from the crops of instincts from the past

Memories

They say memory dissipates as time rolls on

But low do they know, age brings the wisdom

To categorize thoughts in arenas of importance 

Those who forget may be the happiest in life

Gliding through the world ignoring pain

After all, this is what so many try to achieve while

Sedating themselves and chasing dragons....

Even dragons that will not return

This is one of the biggest mysteries of life

We could spend our life times trying to forget and

then complain about it in our later years
What if we embraced life for all of its moments
Grasped onto every tear
Observed every fault and learned from every mistake
What if we used our sorrows to gain strengths
Eventually we would see beauty in everything
These traits are commonly overlooked while basking in
the relaxation of peace or resting on a pillow of tranquility
So to speak.
I encourage everyone to take pride in what they do
Admit faults to themselves and strive for forgiveness
Set goals and achieve them twice over
Resist the temptation to smirk in the presence of those you dislike
And remember those who love you
You always get what you put out.
Put out a bunch of negative energy and become very unhappy
Put out positive energy and fuel up on joy

Life is simple. Don't over-complicate it.

Smile

Some Jumps (Transfer of energy)

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Snakes

There are people in life
Who climb to the top
Others will fall
Cheating the lot
It is a wonder per se
Why those are driven to lie
Speak with certainty
That seems solidified

Farfetched as it seems
There are few who lead
By example and way
Of truth and peace
But the masses wont see
Their eyes remain blind
Serpents have numbed them
To the truth of this kind

The snakes remain strong
Here on the earth
They forget about the future
And Reject rebirth
They laugh at the weak
While gathering their crop
But one day they'll cry
As they fall from the top

Drafts

She had so many drafts
of how she would be
how she would live
who she'd set free
where she would walk
those she would kiss
paths she may cross
people she'd miss
But all of these drafts
of who she would be
did not intertwine
with reality
for lessons were learned
this beauty was taught
to reap what she's sown
cut what she's lost
Now one of these drafts
she did not delete
has left her perplexed
she cannot complete
even through her own words
she knows she cant change
whats past and whats done
so eager
she prays

Sacrifice shall bring

She bore a vision
Created a shell

Made decisions
Time will tell

Lost her life
Just to see

The love she needs

Is in front of thee

No more loss

She kneel and pray

As she regrets

The day away

The path ahead

Small and steep

 But I know that she

Can pull her keep

She feels the chill

Cold as ice

Warmth will come

With sacrifice

So push on forth

Do not give in

Worldly deception

Blunders of sin

Lose the weight

You have gained

And your lost life

Will be regained  

The Paradox of Friendship

Friendship is love but does the majority envision it this way?
There is only one path to it's success, yet seldom is it traveled.
Most who dabble will retreat and return to elementary routes.
For this road is higher than the rest and requires those
who travel it to abandon worldly weights and judgments.
Around each bend is truth and up each climb is justice.
There are many obstacles and encumbrances.
The vast portion is on an incline or a grade.
Hills and valleys are through what you will face.
Yet over every peak the views are beautiful and
there are treasures to see.
Rewards become known and are far more gratifying than
those you'll seek.
If truth is your vehicle, it is powered by honesty.
If righteousness is your transmission, your gears are unique.
If promises are the materials and they are not weak
Then ahead you shall travel as you approach your peak.

Redemption

The anticipation,

The train of thought

Did I win this battle

Or have I lost

I've dreamt of this moment for ages it seems

But reality differs from my deepest dreams

Am I free to indulge in the crop I have reaped

Or was there poison laced in some of the seeds

The trembling

The feeling of wroth

Did I win this battle

Or have I lost

It is no surprise I have chosen this path

For the pleasures conceived have blinded the wrath

I imagined a bliss without the regrets

Yet now I am filled with the will to forget

Did I win this battle

Or have I lost

The end of the line brings forth the sight

Through clouds in my eyes an angelic light

Redemption is here but sends only one clue

For I must examine myself and embrace the truth

The promise

What is a person's word?

Does it mean anything when we make a promise?
Do our promises hold any weight?

Our word is the essence of our inner being.

It is a light that shines from our interior.
A path that leads from our silhouette to our soul.

Our word grows from our deepest inner roots
And blooms into beautiful relationships and fortunes.

It is the only road to our core that we allow any recipient to follow.

When we always stay true, wrongs shall become apparent.
Through these experiences we become stronger and more nobel.

A persons word should be stronger than platinum.

It should be more valuable than gold.

Our word should confidently expose the soul
And we should be proud to do so. 

Do you know who you are?

To an old friend....

While its been years since I've seen you in sight

Our warmth shines through the darkest of night

Like a sea of thoughts where I could have drowned

I swam to the top when you came back around 

I thought this fire would never ignite

But a kindling flame has surprised me tonight

Unwrap the joys of suspense in the past and 

Realize the chains from which we were trapped

..... ......

Let us fly away

Ingrained in my head

I remembered her name

Her image wont leave me alone.

Does she fancy the inside of my head or do I habitually invite her?

Is my behavior that of an addict?

Have I become hooked without even experiencing the full affects?

I can practically taste them....

Though I claim I no longer wish to

I was once told


The grass is always greener

 Not knowing we're are wrong

Burdens arise 
When lust is too strong

You should know what your capable of
 The paths you could choose

Through it all you should shelter 
A thirst for truth


Then I thought

The rush that remains 
Should I hold her close

Sensations that rush
 From the head to my toes

 The joy that she left
After sharing her light

Was my conformation 
Of love at first sight

Finally 


Through flaws in the fabric
I've become weak
The stitching relied upon
Is burdened with leaks
Time has stretched it
And tainted the sheets
Measurements it once held
Are tarnished and creased


So help me God.

Compass of life

Knowing the enemy could lead you ahead

Mistaking your friends will leave you blind

Avoiding forgiveness shall leave you dead

And second glances will save your life

***********

I know not the way the compass points

   But the right of way it guides

As gallantly along my path to success 

I'll forever continue to stride

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Fear no evil

Embrace humility that lies beneath

Live with unconditional love

Die with honor and eternal peace

Evolve

We must train ourselves to live with choices

We may never forget

The conscious and subconscious mind

Could strain with fear and regret

Though it may seem so easy

The naked eye foretells

No one will strengthen actually

Until surrendering what they used to sell

The energy will build inside as we begin to see

That happiness through sacrifice is true security

Remaining complacent deteriorates

And can seduce the strongest to fall

Obviously nothing good can happen

While waiting for time to call

Ultimately you shall see

When you embrace the gifts that were given

And contact all the souls you have crossed

Make certain you have forgiven

Your mind will expand rapidly

Your strength shall flow so deep

As you evolve into which you were meant to be

And cherish it to keep

Strength Through Failure

I love you.
Let your thoughts be cleansed
Let your words speak truth
The weight on your back
Was designed for you
If it becomes heavy
Your muscles will break
But they'll never die
They'll just compensate
So we must feed them
Only the purest in food
So that we become strong
And we remain ever true
For what is the point
If we stumble through life
As the weak link on a chain
And break before night
We must fuel ourselves
For the path to success
And learn from mistakes
Grow from regrets
I say this again
You know this is true
I send you my strength
Because I love you.

Never Grounded

Walk with me now

This path is too dark

To venture alone

You catalyze my spark

Ignite our flame

Ill tame your desire

Through clouds and through smoke

As we become fire

We'll bond into one

Our heat shall explode

As our bodies recite

Every scale, every mode

Soaring through space

We'll fly past the sky

I'll soak up the tears

That filled up your eyes

Walk with me now

Lets fly to the moon

And forget we're fed

From a worldly spoon

Hidden Love

My soul may be old but once it flourished

scarred, it became clouded 

without means of nourish

I try my hardest to remain at peace

but I know whats inside and have to tame the beast

I still house love 

to whom few shall see

but my path is off limits 

however true it may be

one thing I know is I'll share without cue

the remaining portion 

is only for truth

give me your hand if adventures you seek

and ill keep your head strong 

should you feel weak

be honest with me and ill show you the world

from land to sea as our spirits will twirl

I'll always be real

 even if I try

to bury that feeling deep down inside

I only admit this

because I know you are wise

and see to the bottom

of my deep brown eyes. 

A Letter to a Goddess

From the second I saw you that fateful day
I knew in the future our souls would exchange
Upon gazing in your eyes I was lost and intrigued
Finding more than your beauty the naked eye can see

There are pieces of me that reside within you
Answers to questions that I never knew
I have stumbled upon more than a simple friend
Perhaps a key to my past and the hands that could mend

When you turned and you smiled that very first time
I remember the thoughts that soared through my mind
Knowing then I held in so much to be shared
I saw miles inside you and was frightened and scared

Throughout the years I've received visions and thoughts
To success in many challenges you think you have lost
Things that have burdened me throughout my whole life
Grant me the tools to convert darkness into light

You have been challenged in ways you don't even know
For your beauty is beyond what humans can control
But inside your soul lies the real mystique
For your heart is as warm as the Sun's summer heat

You have shared with me something I will never forget
I've become able to decipher my emotions and regrets
My thoughts now have voices and we converse like friends
They were always trying to help but I never tuned them in

Blessed be my fortune in us crossing paths
I've encountered many thousands but your impression will last
Happiness is inside and speaks from the start
But I rarely heard the voices
Until you breached my heart
Thank you

A Letter to Myself

When I moved away from Northern California I was filled with anxiety. I was thoroughly grounded up there and I had connections everywhere. Leaving burdened me with a strong sense of sorrow that I was going to have to give up the things I love and the people I care about. Two years later I returned briefly. This is what I wrote on the last day of my nostalgic journey to the past:

Finally I'm back home. I've returned to my roots and I'm the place I knew like the back of my hand; all the in's and out's, all the shortcuts and secret spots. I am ready to see those who I left behind. But something is different now: the smell I longed for, the taste in the air, the places I knew and the ones I loved. This place has changed since I left. The warm air I'll never forget is now cold and the people are different. My girl has a man and my old friends have moved on. A new breed of people have come to call this place their home. I am no longer indigenous. 

I truly believe home is where your heart is tells you it is. No matter where we choose, no matter why, no matter how. It's that simple. This change has successfully taught me to let go. Seeing all the places I used to frequent and associating the word "past" with them is now freeing and euphoric. I never dreamed of this. It's as if this town is another world; a world away from what I am now familiar with. In a lot of ways I gather a bad feeling from it. I now hold a new sense of humility; a feeling I have became recently acquainted with and strongly accustomed to. While It is wonderful in some ways yet troubling in others, I enjoy it.  So in closure I'll leave my signature on the bell tower and bid this town farewell.... For good. 

Reason

I walk like a fool because I carry too much weight

in the head I am clouded

I wont delegate

I hesitate

But I'll always get through

Even if I can't fill the space of my shoes

Sometimes I hear

calls from inside

the voice of reason

I cannot hide

So I listen carefully

for I can always choose

When I enter this race

 I will not lose

Blinded by Royalty

As the King lay awake at night

visions pass his mind

He chuckles at his glamourous life

 and those he's left behind

But his stepping stones are growing weak 

and his path no longer wide

Still He ponders his many victories

 as his grip begins to slide

The servant sees beyond the eye

 deep within the king

He fishes for the missing clue

 with every song he sings

He knows his path to steal the reign

 is difficult as conspired

Dormant he waits patiently

for the kings time to expire

The queen is blinded by her jewels 

 and beauty for all to see

Idol, she's lost inside her mirror

numb to reality

But time will catch her very soon 

age will then destroy

For she falls for all the joker's tricks

 submitting as his toy

Their castle and the legacy 

shall come crashing to an end

That vision of immortality 

is not human to comprehend

The age for them is growing old

the flesh is getting weak

All they've gained are worldly treasures

which eternally will not speak

My Angel

She seemed so right

or so I thought

but a journey with her

is much more than a walk

I'd kill to continue

she wants to renew

but a dirty conscience

wont let this be true

can I hold the weight

can I carry the bags

can I empty them out

or will we always lag

these are some thoughts

that flew through my head

from instincts that warn me

I walk among dead

it was my own fault

for opening that door

but now that Im in

I cant ask for more

just take what I've got

help others who fall

when the end draws near

Ill stand before all

Im sorry my angel

our time has to end

your wounds are too deep

for my hands to mend. 

The cold road

My life is a maze

Created by me

Those around me

 Seem to always want a piece

They put up signs

They block my streets

But I'll always endure

Grinding my teeth

My struggle is insane

Sometimes I want to cry

But as I loaded the bullets

I asked myself why

So I embarked on a journey

Thoughts began to unfold

I encountered blasphemous voices 

They said warmth becomes cold

They explained there was an answer

 But I must pay a toll

Had I listened

 I would have lost

The last of my soul.

Broken but not breached

The forbidden love

 is hidden inside

and the consequences 

could take my life

devour my spirit 

drink my pride

but with stubbornness

 I do not hide

Ill take the beating 

until I am weak

And broken thy bones

 I cannot speak

my core is blemished

yet still not breached

I'll never lose sight 

of what I seek.

Fate

Betrayal is always felt when it cannot be proved.

It is the lowest form of despicable acts.

It has everything to do with harbor of hate.

It spurs from a lack of respect ingrained within someone's character.

It triggers a terrible feeling that circles through our core.

We can reconcile the act and quarantine its ill effects.

We can hide them in the far corner of the subconscious mind.

Ultimately though, they'll never disperse. 

Stay true

Stay honest

Always navigate the hard path

The high road leads to the ultimate pleasure. 

Where is your destination? 

Your place in heaven

As the years fly by with the blink of an eye

New ones come forth bringing love and surprise

This is our chance to empty the plate

Abolish the past and clean our slate

Look to the future with an open approach

Use judgement and guidance 

As you jump through the ropes

Remain bright and strong

Like the person you are

The end brings reward

With happiness from far

Reward

I am the leader of the 40 thieves

The masters of mystery

Swiftly we vanish into the night

We thrive in the shadows

Absent of light

Away with control you'll watch as we take

As your beliefs start to fade and render as fake

Face us at once

 Show both of your hands

We shall search far and wide 

For one single brand

It appears angelic

Deceitful and bright

On horse so mighty

Not a taint in its white

Silhouette of a god

A heavenly sight

As it blinds all the fools

With rays of false light

But this being is darker than any of us thieves

For it shall take with your life 

The extent of your reach

And stitch from the core

Unto family

As into your soul

 He'll silently breach

This being is wanted

And hides in retreat

Rewards shall be granted

For sight of the beast

If this devil is crossed

Take refuge beneath

Dust off your lamp

And summon the thieves 

Dirty Lessons

While school may enlighten and show you a way

be leery of the messages it could contain

this path it shows can give us a hope

while skewing our senses right under our nose

the theories they teach are laced with spells

while absorbing them we think to question ourselves

This gratification provides a numb to our hurt

but make no mistake it doesn't wash any dirt.

To My Sister....

You stood by me when I turned around

When I closed my ears and shut off your sound

Distanced myself and was never around

and when I reached the sky you still stood your ground

I owe you my heart

I owe you my life

I owe you the gun

 The bullet 

 The knife

Ill stay by your side till morning is night

In spirit

 In sight

 Through dark 

Through light

Dont think I betrayed you that was never my plan

I endured many things you'll never understand

I stumbled through lessons I'll never forget

Through strain

emotion

 And many regrets

Now slowly I'm healing and push to regress

 And replenish what I had prior repressed

I'll repair the tissue I burnt so deep

And reap the scars beneath their heat

Ill continue to bring my senses to peak

And rebuild what I lost through my guilt streak

please forgive me

Depth

From who do we hide?
Where does oneself lie?
In repeat do we try?
Or come and go like the tide?

Its amazing how much we do not know
The care that we share from one another must grow
If we live selfishly we ignore whats inside
That inner love that we mask with the sin we call pride

When we strip away the colors and indulgence in life
and forget the materials in which we set our sights
It is this that exposes our beautiful core
And frees our spirit that we've wanted to soar.

From who do we hide?
In repeat do we try?
With tears we shall cry
As we wash away pride.

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