Sacrifice shall bring

She bore a vision
Created a shell

Made decisions
Time will tell

Lost her life
Just to see

The love she needs

Is in front of thee

No more loss

She kneel and pray

As she regrets

The day away

The path ahead

Small and steep

 But I know that she

Can pull her keep

She feels the chill

Cold as ice

Warmth will come

With sacrifice

So push on forth

Do not give in

Worldly deception

Blunders of sin

Lose the weight

You have gained

And your lost life

Will be regained  

The Paradox of Friendship

Friendship is love but does the majority envision it this way?
There is only one path to it's success, yet seldom is it traveled.
Most who dabble will retreat and return to elementary routes.
For this road is higher than the rest and requires those
who travel it to abandon worldly weights and judgments.
Around each bend is truth and up each climb is justice.
There are many obstacles and encumbrances.
The vast portion is on an incline or a grade.
Hills and valleys are through what you will face.
Yet over every peak the views are beautiful and
there are treasures to see.
Rewards become known and are far more gratifying than
those you'll seek.
If truth is your vehicle, it is powered by honesty.
If righteousness is your transmission, your gears are unique.
If promises are the materials and they are not weak
Then ahead you shall travel as you approach your peak.

Redemption

The anticipation,

The train of thought

Did I win this battle

Or have I lost

I've dreamt of this moment for ages it seems

But reality differs from my deepest dreams

Am I free to indulge in the crop I have reaped

Or was there poison laced in some of the seeds

The trembling

The feeling of wroth

Did I win this battle

Or have I lost

It is no surprise I have chosen this path

For the pleasures conceived have blinded the wrath

I imagined a bliss without the regrets

Yet now I am filled with the will to forget

Did I win this battle

Or have I lost

The end of the line brings forth the sight

Through clouds in my eyes an angelic light

Redemption is here but sends only one clue

For I must examine myself and embrace the truth

The promise

What is a person's word?

Does it mean anything when we make a promise?
Do our promises hold any weight?

Our word is the essence of our inner being.

It is a light that shines from our interior.
A path that leads from our silhouette to our soul.

Our word grows from our deepest inner roots
And blooms into beautiful relationships and fortunes.

It is the only road to our core that we allow any recipient to follow.

When we always stay true, wrongs shall become apparent.
Through these experiences we become stronger and more nobel.

A persons word should be stronger than platinum.

It should be more valuable than gold.

Our word should confidently expose the soul
And we should be proud to do so. 

Do you know who you are?

To an old friend....

While its been years since I've seen you in sight

Our warmth shines through the darkest of night

Like a sea of thoughts where I could have drowned

I swam to the top when you came back around 

I thought this fire would never ignite

But a kindling flame has surprised me tonight

Unwrap the joys of suspense in the past and 

Realize the chains from which we were trapped

..... ......

Let us fly away

Ingrained in my head

I remembered her name

Her image wont leave me alone.

Does she fancy the inside of my head or do I habitually invite her?

Is my behavior that of an addict?

Have I become hooked without even experiencing the full affects?

I can practically taste them....

Though I claim I no longer wish to

I was once told


The grass is always greener

 Not knowing we're are wrong

Burdens arise 
When lust is too strong

You should know what your capable of
 The paths you could choose

Through it all you should shelter 
A thirst for truth


Then I thought

The rush that remains 
Should I hold her close

Sensations that rush
 From the head to my toes

 The joy that she left
After sharing her light

Was my conformation 
Of love at first sight

Finally 


Through flaws in the fabric
I've become weak
The stitching relied upon
Is burdened with leaks
Time has stretched it
And tainted the sheets
Measurements it once held
Are tarnished and creased


So help me God.

Compass of life

Knowing the enemy could lead you ahead

Mistaking your friends will leave you blind

Avoiding forgiveness shall leave you dead

And second glances will save your life

***********

I know not the way the compass points

   But the right of way it guides

As gallantly along my path to success 

I'll forever continue to stride

***********

Fear no evil

Embrace humility that lies beneath

Live with unconditional love

Die with honor and eternal peace

Evolve

We must train ourselves to live with choices

We may never forget

The conscious and subconscious mind

Could strain with fear and regret

Though it may seem so easy

The naked eye foretells

No one will strengthen actually

Until surrendering what they used to sell

The energy will build inside as we begin to see

That happiness through sacrifice is true security

Remaining complacent deteriorates

And can seduce the strongest to fall

Obviously nothing good can happen

While waiting for time to call

Ultimately you shall see

When you embrace the gifts that were given

And contact all the souls you have crossed

Make certain you have forgiven

Your mind will expand rapidly

Your strength shall flow so deep

As you evolve into which you were meant to be

And cherish it to keep

Strength Through Failure

I love you.
Let your thoughts be cleansed
Let your words speak truth
The weight on your back
Was designed for you
If it becomes heavy
Your muscles will break
But they'll never die
They'll just compensate
So we must feed them
Only the purest in food
So that we become strong
And we remain ever true
For what is the point
If we stumble through life
As the weak link on a chain
And break before night
We must fuel ourselves
For the path to success
And learn from mistakes
Grow from regrets
I say this again
You know this is true
I send you my strength
Because I love you.

Never Grounded

Walk with me now

This path is too dark

To venture alone

You catalyze my spark

Ignite our flame

Ill tame your desire

Through clouds and through smoke

As we become fire

We'll bond into one

Our heat shall explode

As our bodies recite

Every scale, every mode

Soaring through space

We'll fly past the sky

I'll soak up the tears

That filled up your eyes

Walk with me now

Lets fly to the moon

And forget we're fed

From a worldly spoon

Hidden Love

My soul may be old but once it flourished

scarred, it became clouded 

without means of nourish

I try my hardest to remain at peace

but I know whats inside and have to tame the beast

I still house love 

to whom few shall see

but my path is off limits 

however true it may be

one thing I know is I'll share without cue

the remaining portion 

is only for truth

give me your hand if adventures you seek

and ill keep your head strong 

should you feel weak

be honest with me and ill show you the world

from land to sea as our spirits will twirl

I'll always be real

 even if I try

to bury that feeling deep down inside

I only admit this

because I know you are wise

and see to the bottom

of my deep brown eyes. 

A Letter to a Goddess

From the second I saw you that fateful day
I knew in the future our souls would exchange
Upon gazing in your eyes I was lost and intrigued
Finding more than your beauty the naked eye can see

There are pieces of me that reside within you
Answers to questions that I never knew
I have stumbled upon more than a simple friend
Perhaps a key to my past and the hands that could mend

When you turned and you smiled that very first time
I remember the thoughts that soared through my mind
Knowing then I held in so much to be shared
I saw miles inside you and was frightened and scared

Throughout the years I've received visions and thoughts
To success in many challenges you think you have lost
Things that have burdened me throughout my whole life
Grant me the tools to convert darkness into light

You have been challenged in ways you don't even know
For your beauty is beyond what humans can control
But inside your soul lies the real mystique
For your heart is as warm as the Sun's summer heat

You have shared with me something I will never forget
I've become able to decipher my emotions and regrets
My thoughts now have voices and we converse like friends
They were always trying to help but I never tuned them in

Blessed be my fortune in us crossing paths
I've encountered many thousands but your impression will last
Happiness is inside and speaks from the start
But I rarely heard the voices
Until you breached my heart
Thank you

A Letter to Myself

When I moved away from Northern California I was filled with anxiety. I was thoroughly grounded up there and I had connections everywhere. Leaving burdened me with a strong sense of sorrow that I was going to have to give up the things I love and the people I care about. Two years later I returned briefly. This is what I wrote on the last day of my nostalgic journey to the past:

Finally I'm back home. I've returned to my roots and I'm the place I knew like the back of my hand; all the in's and out's, all the shortcuts and secret spots. I am ready to see those who I left behind. But something is different now: the smell I longed for, the taste in the air, the places I knew and the ones I loved. This place has changed since I left. The warm air I'll never forget is now cold and the people are different. My girl has a man and my old friends have moved on. A new breed of people have come to call this place their home. I am no longer indigenous. 

I truly believe home is where your heart is tells you it is. No matter where we choose, no matter why, no matter how. It's that simple. This change has successfully taught me to let go. Seeing all the places I used to frequent and associating the word "past" with them is now freeing and euphoric. I never dreamed of this. It's as if this town is another world; a world away from what I am now familiar with. In a lot of ways I gather a bad feeling from it. I now hold a new sense of humility; a feeling I have became recently acquainted with and strongly accustomed to. While It is wonderful in some ways yet troubling in others, I enjoy it.  So in closure I'll leave my signature on the bell tower and bid this town farewell.... For good. 

Reason

I walk like a fool because I carry too much weight

in the head I am clouded

I wont delegate

I hesitate

But I'll always get through

Even if I can't fill the space of my shoes

Sometimes I hear

calls from inside

the voice of reason

I cannot hide

So I listen carefully

for I can always choose

When I enter this race

 I will not lose

Blinded by Royalty

As the King lay awake at night

visions pass his mind

He chuckles at his glamourous life

 and those he's left behind

But his stepping stones are growing weak 

and his path no longer wide

Still He ponders his many victories

 as his grip begins to slide

The servant sees beyond the eye

 deep within the king

He fishes for the missing clue

 with every song he sings

He knows his path to steal the reign

 is difficult as conspired

Dormant he waits patiently

for the kings time to expire

The queen is blinded by her jewels 

 and beauty for all to see

Idol, she's lost inside her mirror

numb to reality

But time will catch her very soon 

age will then destroy

For she falls for all the joker's tricks

 submitting as his toy

Their castle and the legacy 

shall come crashing to an end

That vision of immortality 

is not human to comprehend

The age for them is growing old

the flesh is getting weak

All they've gained are worldly treasures

which eternally will not speak

My Angel

She seemed so right

or so I thought

but a journey with her

is much more than a walk

I'd kill to continue

she wants to renew

but a dirty conscience

wont let this be true

can I hold the weight

can I carry the bags

can I empty them out

or will we always lag

these are some thoughts

that flew through my head

from instincts that warn me

I walk among dead

it was my own fault

for opening that door

but now that Im in

I cant ask for more

just take what I've got

help others who fall

when the end draws near

Ill stand before all

Im sorry my angel

our time has to end

your wounds are too deep

for my hands to mend. 

The cold road

My life is a maze

Created by me

Those around me

 Seem to always want a piece

They put up signs

They block my streets

But I'll always endure

Grinding my teeth

My struggle is insane

Sometimes I want to cry

But as I loaded the bullets

I asked myself why

So I embarked on a journey

Thoughts began to unfold

I encountered blasphemous voices 

They said warmth becomes cold

They explained there was an answer

 But I must pay a toll

Had I listened

 I would have lost

The last of my soul.

Broken but not breached

The forbidden love

 is hidden inside

and the consequences 

could take my life

devour my spirit 

drink my pride

but with stubbornness

 I do not hide

Ill take the beating 

until I am weak

And broken thy bones

 I cannot speak

my core is blemished

yet still not breached

I'll never lose sight 

of what I seek.

Fate

Betrayal is always felt when it cannot be proved.

It is the lowest form of despicable acts.

It has everything to do with harbor of hate.

It spurs from a lack of respect ingrained within someone's character.

It triggers a terrible feeling that circles through our core.

We can reconcile the act and quarantine its ill effects.

We can hide them in the far corner of the subconscious mind.

Ultimately though, they'll never disperse. 

Stay true

Stay honest

Always navigate the hard path

The high road leads to the ultimate pleasure. 

Where is your destination? 

Your place in heaven

As the years fly by with the blink of an eye

New ones come forth bringing love and surprise

This is our chance to empty the plate

Abolish the past and clean our slate

Look to the future with an open approach

Use judgement and guidance 

As you jump through the ropes

Remain bright and strong

Like the person you are

The end brings reward

With happiness from far

Reward

I am the leader of the 40 thieves

The masters of mystery

Swiftly we vanish into the night

We thrive in the shadows

Absent of light

Away with control you'll watch as we take

As your beliefs start to fade and render as fake

Face us at once

 Show both of your hands

We shall search far and wide 

For one single brand

It appears angelic

Deceitful and bright

On horse so mighty

Not a taint in its white

Silhouette of a god

A heavenly sight

As it blinds all the fools

With rays of false light

But this being is darker than any of us thieves

For it shall take with your life 

The extent of your reach

And stitch from the core

Unto family

As into your soul

 He'll silently breach

This being is wanted

And hides in retreat

Rewards shall be granted

For sight of the beast

If this devil is crossed

Take refuge beneath

Dust off your lamp

And summon the thieves 

Dirty Lessons

While school may enlighten and show you a way

be leery of the messages it could contain

this path it shows can give us a hope

while skewing our senses right under our nose

the theories they teach are laced with spells

while absorbing them we think to question ourselves

This gratification provides a numb to our hurt

but make no mistake it doesn't wash any dirt.

To My Sister....

You stood by me when I turned around

When I closed my ears and shut off your sound

Distanced myself and was never around

and when I reached the sky you still stood your ground

I owe you my heart

I owe you my life

I owe you the gun

 The bullet 

 The knife

Ill stay by your side till morning is night

In spirit

 In sight

 Through dark 

Through light

Dont think I betrayed you that was never my plan

I endured many things you'll never understand

I stumbled through lessons I'll never forget

Through strain

emotion

 And many regrets

Now slowly I'm healing and push to regress

 And replenish what I had prior repressed

I'll repair the tissue I burnt so deep

And reap the scars beneath their heat

Ill continue to bring my senses to peak

And rebuild what I lost through my guilt streak

please forgive me

Depth

From who do we hide?
Where does oneself lie?
In repeat do we try?
Or come and go like the tide?

Its amazing how much we do not know
The care that we share from one another must grow
If we live selfishly we ignore whats inside
That inner love that we mask with the sin we call pride

When we strip away the colors and indulgence in life
and forget the materials in which we set our sights
It is this that exposes our beautiful core
And frees our spirit that we've wanted to soar.

From who do we hide?
In repeat do we try?
With tears we shall cry
As we wash away pride.

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